i just wanna give up. i think im gonna kill myself man. i hate everything and i can't handle this anymore.
I don’t know why you came to me for this, honestly. I’m not great when it comes to suicide. I’ve dealt with people who really wanted to die, who were suffering desperately. I would never, ever ask someone to keep suffering, just for my sake. Sometimes people just can’t take it. I get that.
But you wrote me, you’re reaching out. You could have just killed yourself and I would never would have known it. I don’t think you can’t handle it anymore. I just think you can’t handle it on your own anymore.
Scream at the world.
Everything sucks. Deal with feeling like shit. Just lay in bed, or fuck it under the bed, go in the closet, wherever you feel safe and away from everything. Feel sad and awful. You have reasons to feel like this, your feelings are valid and your anger and desperation is valid. You are valid. If you want to take yourself out of the world, that is your choice as an adult. It’s a very permanent choice. And I promise you the moment you realize what you’ve done, there is a shock of terror that runs through you, either you’ll be able to swallow that or not, but once you do this, you can’t go back. There is no going back.
You still have that option now though. Whatever you are going through. You can just start all over. Leave everyone, and everything, and find your place in the world. Fuck it ~